Well. It's been a while. Like 11 years. Lots has happened since my last post--I mean A LOT.
First--Jason and I are no longer together.
Second--he is remarried to a wonderful woman who loves my kids as much as her own. They are very blessed to have her in their lives! I'm thankful that we can all work together to co-parent these kids, which is the MOST important thing.
Third--The kids are thriving! Camden is now in college at The University of South Carolina. Evan is 16 and a sophomore in high school. Braelyn is 13 and in 8th grade. They are all taller than me (of course) and living their best lives! I enjoy the times I get with them individually, and the times we can spend together as a family (when they are actually getting along). Having Camden out of the house has made me appreciate when they are all home--we were always like ships in the night anyway--but having him home and under my roof makes my heart happy!
As for me....well, things look different for me. I'm used to living the single life, which is basically work, children, house, etc. I've just come to realize--I'm not really living. I know I can't be alone. I think it's the stage in my life, but I just feel like I'm going through the steps. Wake, work, drive people places, try to figure out which of the 3 meals my kids will eat to cook (or order takeout), argue with people about litter boxes/laundry/dishes/chores, clean up dog puke, drink some wine, go to bed. Is this just me? How do I fix this? I've basically stopped working out, stopped doing the things for me to keep me healthy that I should be doing--b/c the gumption is just not there.
I'm revisiting this blog b/c it was such an outlet for me once upon a time. Now that my once upon a time is different, should I pick it back up? I keep thinking maybe it will help me to journal again. My dear friends know I've felt this way for so long, and say the same thing month to month--but just never do anything about it. How are you all doing these days? In a funk? Living your best life? Needing a change? Never really thought about it? It is weighing heavy on me, and I know I can't be the only one!
I probably need to start working on a new title....changed to 3 Kids + 1 Mom for now....I'm super original.
--Mel :)
